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"I knew everything Stan. You don't have to make a big deal out of it", Claire looked bemused as she was searching for words to explain to Stan.
"Why didn't you tell me? You knew everything. Yet you haven't told me one bit", Stan fearlessly looked surprise. Grabbing Claire by the arms and swaying her back and forth, as If desperately trying to push her away.
Claire knew everything, she knew that Stan was hiding a secret from her. A secret that made her think twice about leaving Stan and moving away to another state without his permission. He means a lot to her and this is what she gets after finding out that Stan had other relationships besides Claire. He had options too. He loves her too, but Claire found out everything.
She was standing there, dumb-founded. Wiped the tears that was spreading in her cheeks, down her neck and in her hands as they cannot be stopped. Her wild watery cries made Stan hugged her and comforted her.
"I'm sorry, Claire bear. I'm sorry. Here, let me wipe that for you"
"I know. That's why I don't want to tell you, Stan" her voice felt like a sharp bolt that hit the waves.
Stans face went soft. He kissed her in the forehead and hugged her tighter that her face was pressed in his chest.
"But I love you, Claire. That is true" They were now kneeling in front of each others arms.
Claire was crying so hard. She remembered the things that made her depress. Seeing Stan and Emma together, holding hands at the park. Claire had to hide behind the tree so that Stan can't see her. The night when Claire and Stan slept together and his phone starts to ringing, Claire had to pick it up because Stan was too drunk to hear the noisy phone call and she saw the name Emma.
"I really don't know what to do with you right now, Stan" She started talking clearly. Looking up at Stan.
"I wanna leave you. I wanna go away. I want to end this. This ain't good for the both of us, Stan"
"Wait, Claire. Shhh... I love you Claire. I don't know my life without you. That was 4 months ago and you're telling me this now? Why now?"
"Because you're the father to what she's bearing right now! I was so blind because I really don't know that something was going on with you and her" She was scolding now.
"But I don't love her, Claire. I only did that because I thought you were leaving me. You said so yourself, you can't deal having a long-term relationship and you expect me to cry for you all the time? Begging for you to stay? I'm a man Claire. I don't do that shit"
"And where am I now? Did I go? Did I? No. Because I love you Stan that's why I stayed. I can't live my life without you that's why I want to live here with you. If you could just behave your balls like a real man, none of this would happen. Now, look at us? You're begging me, not to leave you?
"Look, Claire. I'm sorry. It's my fault. I was stupid, I'm an asshole. Don't... Just don't end this. I really do love you. Lets go away, far away Claire.. Lets go to other place. Just us. Forget this.. I love you Claire"
"Sorry too. But really have to go" Claire was sobbing her tears off.
They were standing now, faced with each other. Claire wanted to slap him in the face but she was fooled by love itself.
Claire ignored Stan. Went to the bedroom, took a bag and started to pack her things. Dashed in the closet to fetch her clothes and other stuffs. Stan, rubbed his face and punched the wall. Walked outside and walked away.
She was crying so hard while she folded her clothes and placed it inside the bag. How could he lie to her. Now, he's gonna be a father. Claire had no choice but to really leave the entire place and find on a new life for herself. They have been together for 3 years and look at them now, breaking up.
Although, she knew that something like this would happen but she just ignored everything because of love. She loved him, she never did anything to hurt him, or argue with him. She's such a nice, warm-hearted girl.
This ain't over yet, she thought to herself. I can do this. I can move on. I have given him too many chances already and now I'm the one being fooled by him. This is not gonna happened again.
The phone rang again. It was Emma. She was calling. Claire had no option but to pick it up and pressed talked.
"Hello?" the familiar voice spoke.
"Hello, Emma"
"Claire? Where is Stan?"
"He's out"
"Where'd he go?"
"I don't know. How's the doctor?"
"Fine. It's gonna be healthy"
"Okay. I have to go"
"Ohh.. Wait.. Uhm, Claire.. Mom said If you're going home this evening? She's making dinner"
Claire had to end the call and continued to pack. She's annoyed by her sister Emma, calling and calling for hours to check up on Stan. She stood up, took the bag, open the door outside and went to get a taxi. I'm never coming back here again, she said as she closed her eyes to stop the tears from traveling down her cheeks again.
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That is all for this tragic short novel of mine. More to come. Hahaha! I hoped that filled your eyes with thrill. Bye lovers. Gonna be making more of that. Yes, yes, yes.
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